*blank Stare*

Ok so I didn't go finish my letter (i need to tho lol). The list of people I can't trust seems to be getting longer and longer as the days go om. As soon as I am done here I am calling all my phone companies to see about having my numbers changed. Which will be a pain in the ass since I have had all of the number for years now and all my business shit is attatched to them. At this point I think I'm willing to put in the extra work of contacting all my business people and stuff and informing them of the number change. My bestfriend did this a couple years ago and I didn't "understand" it. NOW I do. Sometimes you just need to start clean. Wipe everyone and everything out of your life that you have no use/need for. Wipe out those you can't trust or just don't want around anymore. Kinda like a re-birth I guess. Gawd I've grown up lol Is there a 12 step program for being a bitch? LMAO It's odd I feel like I have been through some sort of "life program" where you get to have your eyes opened and get a deeper understanding of life and yourself and you live through it and get a chance to change what is wrong with YOU. I have come to understand that no matter how hard I try and how much I want to make others better people or want to help them be better people ...I can't. They have to do that. I'm lucky. My bestfriend is one of the most wonderful people I have ever come in contact with (Second only to my aunt). She was there when I was the chubby kid getting picked on and she'll be there when we walk into our high school reunion and people go DAMN THEY'RE HOT lmao I might seek out raki healing. I need something to help heal my mind, body and soul. Sometimes we ALL need that but just don't want to admit it. Ok Now I'm REALLY going to finish my letter lol I've only been working on it for like a week lol

I'll post tomorrow about my dorkiness LMAO

P.S. I'd like to thank Dahlia for my logo/graphic in this post. Check Dahlia out at http://www.dahliacharms.com/